Hmm..who am I?
Years ago, I was asked this and I replied with some kind of ridiculously shitty metaphor, comparing myself to a website with selectable layouts. I guess the essence of that is the same but the face I present is fairly uncomplicated imo.
My hobbies consist of making people smile, awkward and super fail-y attempts at cleverness, roleplaying, gardening, tv-watching, half-assedly working out, going to museums and reading. I'm nearly silent 90% of the time except when I'm around someone I'm comfortable with or if I get anxious. Then I turn into a leaky faucet/accidental loudmouth. I'm still kpop boy band-crazy
I'm incredibly, if not obsessively introspective and analytical about life and reality but I've been told that I'm very easy to converse with, low-key. I'd rather listen than speak. I'm not the judgmental type and don't prefer to be around those that are so in a cruel, unforgiving way but I understand why someone would feel the need to judge. That said - my responses can sometimes come across as cynical or derisive when my mood sucks. I'm working on it. I was raised christian/catholic to appease my mother and grandmother but now I just walk in my own personal faith. I still admire and look to the saints and various other entities for wisdom. I tend to make references to them from time to time so if thats something that will make you uncomfortable I can add you to a filter
I've always been unapologetically studious and these days I keep one finger on the pulse of global political/social justice/environmental events. My mind is open and willing to hear various sides of the story but I'm no sjw. That's gotta be exhausting for those that are..
This journal is not always coherent and sometimes updated inconsistently. Contents include a considerable excess of self-centered topics, occasional fandom analysis, navel grazing malaise, rehashes of awkward things I did, lists that ought to be read into a tape recorder as "notes to self" rather then for other people to see, elaborate fantasies that work as metaphors for my actual feelings and the usual school-related teeth gnashing. Anticipate moments of foolishness, moodiness, and wisdom to varying degrees. A tolerance for nerdiness and geekery, are required to access this lj. But I'm not into serious fandom blogging. ( Read more... )
Currently my favorite books are A little Life by Hanya Yanagihara and Halfway Human by Carolyn Ives Gilman
I like the sounds of words and names, and the shape of them on paper and in print. I've been writing ever since I was a child, I seemed to learn the touch of stories and poetry as I learnt how to touch pen to paper. Of course, to veer from the romantic, that was largely because as primary school children we were encouraged to write stories and poetry along with learning abc, how to write from left to right (remember how when I first tried to write, right to left seemed more natural than left to right?). I view writing as a method and vehicle for expression and what I want to achieve is a style where expression - the transmission of ideas, emotions, atmospheres from writer to reader - is the first priority. A more fluid style where everything serves to show something.
【Fandom's I lurk】
The fun/safe side of the yuri/yaoi fandom (sigh..)
Broad City (Lol I know..)
Khip hop & R+B (Giriboy, Zico, Sam Kim, DEAN, Beenzino, Kittib, Lady T, Yezi, Choi Sam, Hanhae, Epik High, Tiger JK, Baechigi, Basick, Geegooin, Jay Park, Gray, Loco, Hwayobi, Crush, Jooyoung, Zion T, Samuel Seo, Primary, Hyukoh, Dok2 in small doses)
F(x) (Mostly for Krystal)
Big Bang (Gtop Kaisoo Taekai & Chansoo & Krisoo)
Dramatical Murder (Before the fandom got all fucked up..lol)
X Files (Scully! <3)
Game of Thrones (For Sansa & Brienne)
Mad Fat Diary (cause that show is so cute~ Ray is adorable. I totes ship her with her best friend and not the dude tho >>;)
Mucc (Tatsurou & Yukke)
Dir en grey (Kyo)
Plastic Tree (ryutaro bb)
Sadie (Tsurugi, Mizuki, Kei)
etc..not many currently but ask me if you'd like ^-^